My mom sobbed as we drove away from the car dealership in a brand new car. Why? Even with the excitement of a new vehicle, we were leaving behind our old car – and that can be really sad! Actually, even at a young age, I totally got it. I didn’t cry, but I felt her pain. We were leaving behind something that had served our family well and helped create memories.
I love the anticipation and excitement of change… and I really dislike change. I guess I tend to be satisfied with where I am in life – while at the same time I love to plan and look forward to the new and unknown. Contentedly adventurous. Adventurously content.
I recently heard a talk by President Dieter F. Uchtdorf who talked about being grateful in our circumstances – I totally get that too! The concept of “endings” was also discussed – he was speaking of endings much more serious and life-changing than trading in an old car, but I was still intrigued. This next line is what really caught my ear – and the following statements were also interesting.
Summer days that end— Cars that get worn out— Sixth and final 12 year old trips. I feel like I want to hang on to life’s wonderful moments… and yet I cannot, and as it turns out, I don’t really want to. I cherish them, and move on, and before I know it – there are new life moments to cherish. I know that there are endings ahead for me (and everyone) that are too awful to anticipate. Perhaps my practice will small things will pay off. Hmmm, as I am typing I am thinking that the big ending I don’t want to consider is death… and yet that is the ending that is not really an ending at all. My own death holds no fears for me – but others…. ugh, I don’t want to think about that. Someday I will have to come back and read about how brave I was letting summer go… ugh again…
Tennessee – the great Smoky Mountains – was our 12 year old trip destination. Her first reaction was the same as everyone else, “What’s in Tennessee?” Hillbillies of course. First a day of opulence at the Biltmore Estate in Asheville, NC – also a day of backwoods living at Cades Cove, etc. in the Smoky Mountains. A fun day of roller coasters at Dollywood in between. Kimberly is a fantastic traveling companion – ready for adventure, no complaints, fun ideas, good conversation, smart as a whip – definitely a keeper. Motherhood is the best!!!